One morning this Twilight Zone episode [see the clip below] came up in discussion. It’s Alpha’s favorite, and I asked her why.
“Because the old man was willing to live with pain if he could be with his wife.” She looked at me and asked. “Do you like it?”
“It’s one of my favorites.” But I knew it hadn’t always been. As I’ve gotten older, it became increasingly so, and I wanted Alpha to know that. “But I didn’t really understand and relate to it until I was much older than when I first saw it.”
Alpha is the Queen of All Questioners but not complicated. She asks simply… why (as I had just done to her). And that’s often the hardest question to answer. It requires that you pin down your reasons. She slid back in the chair, so I knew she wanted to talk about it…
“Well, the story’s about something that is true. Love–real love–has nothing to do about the outside and everything to do with the inside.”
“What do you mean?”
I sat back, too. “It’s not the person outside that counts… it’s the person inside that you fall in love with. And it’s that person, who they are and who they become over the years that you stay in or fall out of love with. It’s a two-way thing. Because it’s not just them. It’s about you, too… who you were, who you are, who you become… inside. Not what you look like then, now or tomorrow. We all age. We all are not as young, handsome or beautiful as we once were. That doesn’t matter. It’s what’s inside us.” I leaned towards her. “You asked why I like this?”
“It’s because they loved each other for who they were inside and given a chance for only one to change their outside would have jeopardized that. Their love, what they had together, was stronger than the lure of youth and beauty.”
Alpha smiled, got up and gave me a neck hug then headed into breakfast. A few minutes later I heard her talking to Beta about it. I listened, smiling, and the song ’12th of Never’ sung by Johnny Mathis came to mind… hauntingly beautiful:
‘You ask how long I’ll love you, I’ll tell you true. Until the Twelfth of Never, I’ll still be loving you…’
[You can find this episode, “The Trade-Ins” on Netflix.